Assalamualaikum and Hi,
I am here because I just want to give support to myself.
I have to be strong. KENA JADI WANITA KUAT SENTIASA.
You need to go out even it makes you want to cry. Slowly everything will be okay. You will heal. Years from now, you will not be crying for the same reason anymore.
If you feel want to cry, just cryyyyy. Cry as much as you want.